The Bubble I call Home

Just so you know I’ll be taking a blogging and foruming break to focus on my online summer school classes and getting my priorities back on track!

So just a small update - I start school today at 5 pm! No I’m not nervous LOL

Online Summer School So that I can graduate early!

yes - I know what you are thinking …. ON FRIDAY THE 13Tth ??? Yah … same here

well … I will need to update you I know. Sorry for neglecting you!!

As I was wandering around my usual blogs, I came across one of my friends who had this link up: Blogging: Healthy

 Yah … Well this is actually a good quick read, and I am pleased to have found it because how else do I explain my blogging addiction? LOL

well, Happy surfing!

I got a pretty blunt comment on my blog post that I posted on the 3rd about why athiesm exists; Hipocrisy. Well that statement is true to me, Dc Talk and my famliy and chrisitans who try not to be hypocrites. We all know that hypocrisy exists, and its has forever. It lives in the world even where some don’t believe in God. It’s what ruins lives, it ruins reputation, and it ruins reality. People say one thing and do another. For us christians, we believe in God. We don’t have to see it, or have physical evidence when we already have been given it. Life, laughter, love, family, friends, animals, wonders, the earth, sounds, everything you can possibly imagine is God. He made it, it is his, that is proof. I don’t wake up every morning and doubt it, I don’t see my mom’s smiling face and doubt it, I don’t play with my dogs and doubt it, I don’t experience pain and doubt it, I don’t want to doubt it. I don’t - it’s in my heart, my head and my soul. It is real to me, and that’s good enough. I wish it was enough for other people.

Now, I love opinions because I wouldn’t have let my blog allow comments if I didn’t want them. So I got one that is asking me whether or not I want to approve it.

Here it is: Nice song, but false. Atheism exists because there is no God. Simple really.

Well I’m sorry, but God does exist. Wait - no, I’m not sorry - because He is great. He is wonderful and he made each and every one of us, even those who don’t believe in him.

God exists beause my gummies say so. God made me gummi bears- the best thing in the ENTIRE world. How can you NOT believe in a guy like that?!?

—- I had waaaaaaaaaaay more to say, but we had the Penguin Grandparents come in and we’ve spent the past two days with them so I’ve managed to forget these things.

OH OH OH OH!!!!!!!!!! By the way …. I worked my butt off, and it payed off. I got home last night from b-day shopping for Mama (HAPPY BDAY MAMA!) and checked my grades on powerschool - and OMG - can you believe it?!?! I finished off this year with a 4.0! Yay!

^_^ anyways off to save the world one cupcake at a time … *whispers* and then rule the planet with the Gummi Bears …. *
*supergirl*

Today I learned what it was like to not stress. FINALLY.

Today I saw how my choices affect others.

Today I had a friend be concerned about me - whether or not they wanted me to see it - and I appreciated it.

Today I got sleep without nightmares.

Today I found a safe haven inside my mind, and it’s hard to reach, but that place I found was really nice. It wasn’t even sleep because I knew what was going on around me. I was closing my eyes, but it was like shutting off my main conscience and living in my heart for a bit.

Today I want everyone to know I love them. I might not show it, and I might not say it but if you are in my life - there’s gotta be a reason, and I don’t know where I’d be if I never met you. Thank you.

Today I would like to say - Amen to the Lord because he has got me here safely and he has made sure of that, and now I am a happy girl.

*Supergirl*

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God

I am way to lazy to post a blog of my own right now - but I have good news, and you have to go here to read it. It’s mama’s blog. Trust me - it’s helpful.

YBT * Amber

I have had this overwhelming sense of …. peace. I thought it was me being tired, I thought it was me depressed, I thought it was empty but I figured it out.

I am happy. I am at spot in my life where I have serenity, and I enjoy it. Usually there are about 500 things going on in my head. Things about people, places, things to do, goals, dreams, future, love, life, singing, music, movies, and nonsense were always fluttering my head making it impossible to rest. I couldn’t get to sleep, I couldn’t wake up one day without a headache and I didn’t always feel good. I may not always feel good enough, and I may not always feel like I have friends, but if it’s one thing I know, it’s that God and my family love me. I am good enough for them, and life is good. Live is GOOD.

Blame it on the weather, blame it on the food, or blame it on someone but really - I want to give God credit. I’ve stopped stressing and worrying, and now its like being free. Like He took off the weights and chains in my life, and now I get to enjoy it. I had an ex-boyfriend tell me once that he was jealous of me. I asked him, “Jealous of what?” - his reply “Your serenity. Being at peace with the world, and being calm and serene in life is a blessing that I wish I had”. …. WOW. I never thought about that. I wonder who else sees it, and why I never saw it. I guess I just lived it for so long, I didn’t notice it. Now I do. Now I dwell in this bubble of my own, where nothing can hurt me and I feel constant love from my family around me even when I don’t feel it from others. I love God, and I think this is hiw way of telling me He loves me back. God gives us all different things, and this is one of my gifts. I asked Him to take away my problems and help me out. When I started to help myself, He gave me the extra shove and He’s been helping me through it. Mom has this screensaver that says, “If God brings you to it, He will lead you through it”. It’s an amazing passage. Also, James 1:2 “My brothers and sisters, have joy in the trials that you may face of any kind” is great. I should be thankful that I am ALIVE to experience the problems I do, GOd gave me the gift of breathing, I should thank him for it.

What do you do to relax? Have you talked with God? What have you done to stay at peace?

Take time today to pray for those who’ve hurt you and, bless those you mistreat you. They are just as much of a lost Child of God as we are.

*YBT  *Amber
*Supergirl …. off to make more cookies for this week, then save the world again - I’ve given up on saving the world by eating cookies, I think I shall save the world by making MORE!!

We were just outside having a converstion and this is how part of it was:

Dad: “You’re being a litttle argumentative tonight, why?”
Me:”I am not being argumentative!”

Ho hum …. not exactly the perfect way to explain myself now is it?
Just thought I’d share that little bit of conversation we have as a family, at least that which can be understood of it

…….. Isn’t that just insane?

Mom’s version

Another long week. More drama in highschool. More sun. Maybe a fence. More people smiling. - Let me go into what we call the wonders of my complex brain (with inspiration of a wonderful author)

I wonder now if there could be such thing as another dimension. A place that is exactly like our own. Same world, same people, same plans, same things except maybe it’s an alter ego of a person, or different plan. Where each person makes a different choice than their counterpart in another one. Is it possible that maybe out in other galaxies, and other systems/planets that there are timelines that go 1000’s of years back and 100’s of years foward? where there was a world of us in a different time and age - but we didn’t know about it. Would it be possible to visit this place? Would there be a way to communicate with them? Could we switch places with them? Would they die there if we died here? If any of this was possible - would it tear the cosmos apart and bring an end to all creation? Would God allow any of it? What is possible in this day and age of discovery, and growing technology? - Well, Bryan Davis explores this idea and theories in his wonderful book (start of a new series for him) - Echoes from the Edge: Beyond the Reflections Edge. With characters that pop to life, and fine detail in every scene, this book created a mental movie in my brain. Action, love, family, honesty, music, passion, and true musings of what just might exist I would tell anyone to read it. I read it with such intesity I am re-reading again just so that I don’t miss ANY detail! Once again Bryan has completely shocked me. His work incorporates modern thoughts on the fantasy realm, and brings about mysteries in a positive light that if ever true in this world, that it would only ever exist from and because of God. Makes you truly question what is real, what isn’t, and what you can believe in without seeing it because you see it from an acceptable perspective. Bryan always makes me feel ok about my own questions and theories, because it is ok to wonder what I do if I see it from the right angle.

I reccommend ALL of his books because they amaze me (though I can’t admit that I have read every single one of his books - I will however - I will tell you to still read any of them, because anything he does and has written is worth reading because it is his!)

So - tell me what you think. Ask me what things he writes. Ask me what I think about his fantasy books. Ask me who else I reccommend. Ask me what I plan on writing about next. Ask me what I plan on reading next (even though you should already know that since I can’t stop reading Beyond the Reflections Edge). Ask me and I shall answer you the best I know how.

and this is the strange wonders of a complex brain that which lives insides supergirl who is now off to save the world eating one cookie at a time

Everyone is entitled to a bad day, a bad hair day, or a “I don’t want to talk to anyone today” mood everyonce in awhile. So today - though it wasn’t one of my best - I found that this song fits what I needed. I tell this to all who hurt, and I also dedicate it to my day.

JOSH GROBAN LYRICS

“You Are Loved (Don’t Give Up)”

Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
When your heart’s heavy
I…I will lift it for you

Don’t give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I…I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

Don’t give up
It’s just the hurt that you hide
When you’re lost inside
I…I will be there to find you

Don’t give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I…I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
Don’t give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved

So I’ve fallen in love with the song ‘No Air’ by Jordin Sparks - our one and only beautiful once idol contestant now major hit singer who never ceases to amaze me!! She also has the hit ‘Tattoo’

http://youtube.com/user/JordinSparks

I have been listening to her music all week, and all weekend so far. I plan on continuing to do so.

Have fun, and leave me comments!! I love hearing what you have to say. After all you are strange if you want to read my blog. LOL just kidding. I like it when people read what I have to say - It makes me feel good!

p.s. I managed to spend the time and make some categories!! Have fun with that too, because I still have to go back to previous posts and add the categories to them so more will be added to them as well. Oh, and don’t forget to stop by my ‘She is…’ page because I updated that as well. Feel free to leave a comment on me, or what you see in me.